13 years later... I still miss her

Wendy Wayment Winchester October 3, 1959 - August 21, 1995



Glimpses of You

A vow to abide in the now
Is haunted by you
The past penetrates my present
Plaguing my vision with “what-ifs”

A broken pledge to myself
An intrusion on my normalcy
A halted memory
…creased by my humanity
A casualty of my callousness
An infliction of responsibility

I clutch onto glimpses of you…
Your dazzling elegance
Your luminous laugh
Your radiant warmth
…and I grin
A juxtaposition of bliss and sorrow

I still miss you… 13 years later
Just promise me that
Your wounds have healed
And you wear what you have earned
A smile and wings
…and fly! Soar!

Just Because...

The Music Tag

List 7 songs you are into right now. No matter what genre whether they have words, or even if they are not any good, but they must be songs you are really into right now, shaping your summer.

1. Shine- Anna Nalick
2. Violet Hill- Cold Play
3. I’m Yours- Jason Mraz
4. Love Me Dead- Ludo
5. Rainy Monday- Shiny Toy Guns
6. Shattered (Turn the Car Around)- O.A.R.
7. Better in Time- Leona Lewis

Six words that describe my life right now:

1. Frenzied
2. Occupied
3. Authentic
4. Satisfied
5. Exasperating
6. Candid

Mosaic

1. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
2. Using only the first page, pick an image.
3. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into mosaic maker.

The Questions:

1. What is your first name? Sheila
2. What is your favorite food? Pasta
3. What high school did you go to? Layton
4. What is your favorite color? Red
5. Who is your celebrity crush? Ben Affleck
6. Favorite drink? Cherry Coke
7. Dream vacation? Tropical Paradise
8. Favorite dessert? Raspberry Cheesecake
9. What you want to be when you grow up? Writer
10. What do you love most in life? Unconditional Love
11. One word to describe you. Macabre
12. Your flickr name. Tainted Charm



If you feel like doing this... then do it... just because:)

My first 20 mile cycle ride

Well, I finally did it. Not that I have been trying very long. I bought me a Schwinn road bike 3 weeks ago and have been riding 5 days a week. Up until yesterday my longest ride was 10.3 miles.

Yesterday I set out on my ride in hopes of doing 20 miles but not knowing if I could make it. After mile 5 which was mostly uphill, I thought I wasn't going to make it. I turned left onto Bacchus where I pulled off the road and looked down the long hill in front of me deciding if I really wanted to go for it. I took a couple drinks of water and decided that this was the day I was going to conquer the distance.

I put my water bottle back in the cage, clipped in my shoes and started hammering down that long hill past the dump. I wanted to keep my speed up as high as I could since the other side of the hill was just as steep going up.

I churned all the way to 38.9 miles an hour, a little scared since that's faster than I have ever gone on a bike without a motor, and all I have is a measly helmet to keep my body from coming apart in case of a crash.

Luckily I was going fast enough to only have to drop 2 gears going up the other side. Other than that my ride was pretty uneventful and serene.

I'm not sure if it was harder than I expected or easier. I do know that it was awesome to pull into the driveway at exactly the 20 mark. It took me 1hr 17min 59sec at an average speed of 15.4mph.

I didn't quit! I wasn't sure if I could do it but once I made the decision to roll after that 5 mile mark there was no turning back. Cycling is not only a physical strain but also a mental strain. You can really find out a lot about yourself and your abilities when you're on a bike. You have to make yourself do things your mind and body are saying no to. Once you get there you want to do it again. It's a feeling of great accomplishment once you reach the end. This is a very fun and healthy sport.

My brother Tim talked me into getting the bike so I could train for mini triathlons and I'm glad he did. The bike actually does 2 things for me. First, it's the best training you can do to race motorcycles and I know it has made me better since last Sunday my track day went exceptionally well. And the second thing it's doing it making me lose weight like crazy. Last Saturday I was 178 lbs and this Saturday I'm at 171 lbs and you can start to see a 6pack forming. I can't tell you how exciting that is for someone that has never had one.

Here is my route from yesterday:

My Lovely

Anticipation has been high. I trusted Stephenie Meyer with my beloved imaginary friends and she did not disappoint. 754 pages in one day... pure euphoric bliss! I laughed, I cried, and I almost reached through the book and tore out a fictional character's throat. Hey, what good is a vampire book if it doesn't evoke some blood lust? I won't post any spoilers... but if you ever heard any of my theories in the past... I was so totally right!